by Matthew Kelsey
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I was an infant until they handed me my brother
for a rattle. I was a baby until I suddenly shot up to six
feet tall. I was a toddler then, learning how to fall.
I was a boy until they dared to wound the future
I was a boy until they dared to wound the future
man in me, was at home until home was a car.
I was a Weaver until I placed some dolls in a house,
I was a Weaver until I placed some dolls in a house,
named them Mom and Dad, told the therapist
I’m burning it all down. I was a Kelsey then
I’m burning it all down. I was a Kelsey then
until I became a Kelsey—my uncles refused to play
brothers. At least I was a son again. I was a son again
brothers. At least I was a son again. I was a son again
until my parents died. Even then, I felt like myself
until forced to mind the boy inside. When I could not
until forced to mind the boy inside. When I could not
find him, I held myself tight, said, Listen, it’s your job
to remember where I’m coming from. Mine to mind
to remember where I’m coming from. Mine to mind
where you’ve been. This was my story to tell until
it was my story. It was the ending until I began.
it was my story. It was the ending until I began.
Read on . . .
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