When My Brother Tells Me I'm Obsessed with Sadness

across the living room of the trailer
we live in      he does so      to hurt me
I can’t argue exactly     when my depression
has almost killed me five      no six times

it’s hard not to be obsessed with your own shadow
I don’t tell him     he is right      and wrong
he is     looking up into a tree      deep
in the woods     at a bird he tries to match


with the one in the field guide     a bird
just too far away to see       the silver and rust
of its plumage      but one he cups his hands
to whistle at regardless     I don’t tell him


I love him       and that’s why when he calls me
by the wrong name       I will always answer


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