problem: meaning
“thrown” and “before”: that which is flung into
the presence of, that which flies in the face of:
a confrontation: same
problem as before:
some nights you were away, and I
sat in the darkness on the circle of bricks before the old roses,
the yellow light from an attic window thrown down
on my head, the light trailing into near parts of the beds, a mere
glancing rather than a long steady look that shook
when the leaves shook in chance wind:
relief, then self
-reproach for believing it:
