by Rachel Edelman
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Descent jumps and jostles,
nausea drops me
back to the floodplain
I fled.
The taxi driver asks,
Do you have some mixed blood?
Do you have some mixed blood?
He says, You have an old world face.
I let my eyes flare
as he drives me
past the split
where Walnut Grove divides
cropland from greenway.
as he drives me
past the split
where Walnut Grove divides
cropland from greenway.
On the farm side,
heat gleams
heat gleams
on shoulders screened CORRECTIONS:
Workers in the cotton
still in chains.
Workers in the cotton
still in chains.
Past the test plots,
past the longhorn pen,
barbed wire blooms into razor—
past the longhorn pen,
barbed wire blooms into razor—
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Packing,
I stacked books in boxes
I stacked books in boxes
like green-husked walnuts
we left curbside
every spring.
we left curbside
every spring.
On every corner, an alabaster cross:
my parents made sure
we lived among
other mezuzahs.
we lived among
other mezuzahs.
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Midstep, I stop
where sweet pea climbs the chain-link.
where sweet pea climbs the chain-link.
I sketch, invert the corners—
erase, retrace,
render the storefronts:
render the storefronts:
AVAILABLE AVAILABLE AVAILABLE . . .
follow the beams
someone felled
someone planed
someone felled
someone planed
someone nailed in place.
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Farmers set
tomatoes bottom-up
to hide the spokes of scars
around their stems.
tomatoes bottom-up
to hide the spokes of scars
around their stems.
Sweet heirlooms
rest on a folding table, easy
rest on a folding table, easy
like the fat gold fruit
I was born to.
I was born to.
I know to visit
before I point out what I want;
before I point out what I want;
pass my cash, take a bag
and
Have a blessed day.
and
Have a blessed day.
*
In her driveway Minnie hugs my neck, says,
What’d you do with all your hair?
What’d you do with all your hair?
Inside, the news: a robbery, a gun bust;
she says, They need to go get a job.
she says, They need to go get a job.
I nod and sip my tea, the chill of her A/C blowing.
We lean almost as close
We lean almost as close
as when we’d visit over the gospel radio.
She asks what my parents won’t:
She asks what my parents won’t:
When are you going to give your daddy a grandbaby?
and just like our Sundays on the phone, I say,
I’m all set.
and just like our Sundays on the phone, I say,
I’m all set.
When my parents packed up, she got a pension.
My stomach growls; Minnie says,
I don’t need much dinner.
My stomach growls; Minnie says,
I don’t need much dinner.
As I’m leaving:
Tell your mama I need a raise.
Tell your mama I need a raise.
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My knife plumb
to a warped board, I set to core a tomato.
to a warped board, I set to core a tomato.
Imagine the slip
of teeth clean through,
of teeth clean through,
the drip of seedy water
into the sink . . .
into the sink . . .
See the rabbi beam
as he tells me how,
after King’s assassination,
The whole city sat shiva. No riots here.
My teeth tingle
as he tells me how,
after King’s assassination,
The whole city sat shiva. No riots here.
My teeth tingle
with an anger he wouldn’t approve of.
He says, People are used to the lifestyle.
He says, People are used to the lifestyle.
It’s so affordable.
Here, my money
Here, my money
gets me double
the bouquets of basil,
the bouquets of basil,
double the sinuous
summer squash.
summer squash.
I buy pounds of peaches
to slice at breakfast,
to slice at breakfast,
slurp alone
in the still afternoon.
in the still afternoon.
Who did I choose
when I wished myself elsewhere?
when I wished myself elsewhere?