Ladyboy

i’ll never be this beautiful again / bleeding orchid / face down in a pool of booze / sweat illuminated in whiskey-refracted light / to think this makes me a woman / rhinestones in my teeth / press-on nail that took some cuticle with it / all the things we do in bathroom stalls / our false uteri / always detachable and quivering / stitches never pulled tight enough / we are good boys / anything but human / good boys worshipping skin in the darkest parts of the club / good boys drenched in someone else’s sweat / good boys with their mouths unhinged and swallowing / bird eyes and incense / thighs salt-swollen / lips augmented / counterfeit estrogen / legs splayed over laboratory tables / galvanized and dissected / foreskins sutured to femininity / three days later / our wounds already healed / blood still pooling beneath the skin / symptom of womanhood / breaching unlovable bodies / we stiletto back to floodlit stages and boy flesh / stripped sequins / reptilian bodies doused in gasoline / we are edible creatures / begging for tongues against steel / biting triggers on magazine covers / we are naked and peeling at the bone / we are mouthful / we are spit up / we are half-breasted / we stick to the glass